It's not the same.

Today is your birthday, S.

Nine years. meh. I don't miss you as much as I used to. It is a damn good sign.

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OH MY GOD! I didn't expect to see you today!!!!!! I haven't seen you for 7 years; and I don't have the courage to walk up to say hi, and look you in the eyes again. Because I know if I did, I'm going to be back to square one. All messed up again.

Anger, can!

I'm extremely annoyed by mean#1.

I have just reached the point of getting sick of people questioning me! For the 9856329019386475 times, I ain't no lesbian.

I like dudes! I like my man tall, dark, gentleman, unpredictable and interesting. With some ink or piercing. ;D


Fucking hell man. Being single doesn't mean that I'm a lesbian!!!! I just have not been truly madly deeply in love with anyone for a long time. Plus, at the moment I'm no happy ending believer.


Tell me please, how can I put this to an end.

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

I miss my dad.

I love weekends with my family ♥

Take the Sky ♥

I want to go on a road trip, with loads of pictures, crazinesslaughter, food and booze. ANYONE? Hellooooo! Anyone?


Shipwreck in the sea of faces/There's a dreamy world up there/Dear friends in higher places/Carry me away from here/Travel light let the sun eclipse you/'Cause your flight is about to leave/And there's more to this brave adventure/Than you'd ever believe/Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you/Wide eyes will always brighten the blue/Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery/Because after all those wings will take you, up so high/ So bid the forest a fond goodbye, as you brace the wind and/Take to the sky/On the hills of lore and wonder/There's a stormy world up there/You can't whisper above the thunder,

But you can fly anywhere/Purple burst of paper birds this/Picture paints a thousand words/So take a breath of mist and mystery/And don't look back!

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you/Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,
Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery/Because after all those wings will take you, up so high/So bid the forest a fond goodbye, as you brace the wind and/Take to the sky/There's a realm above the trees/Where the lost are finally found/Touch your feathers to the breeze/And leave the ground,

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you/Wide eyes will always brighten the blue/Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery/Because after all those wings will take you, up so high/So bid the forest a fond goodbye, as you brace the wind and/Take to the sky/Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you/Wide eyes will always brighten the blue/Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery/Because after all those wings will take you, up so high/So bid the forest a fond goodbye, as you brace the wind and/Take to the sky.

At Work

Mean#2

Becky and Mean#1

Mean#2 at work.

This cute lil boy, FUCKING NIGHTMARE, CAN!

colleagues, pretty mental ones!

To be the best, you must be able to handle the worst.

We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying. - Grey's Anatomy

Beautiful disaster

"Oh Monday, you tricky beast. Sometimes you're full of life, full of promise and hope and cheer. But sometimes, like today, you're wicked and cruel, long and unrepentant." I couldn't agree more!

Monday madness. Fucked up everything. Lesson learned.

Don't turn away/Dry your eyes, dry your eyes/Don't be afraid/But keep it all inside, all inside/When you fall apart/Dry your eyes, dry your eyes/Life is always hard

I really need to learn how to throw my stone further than everyone.




La di da. You're so unpredictable.

Un beau jour

Mister Blue Sky, you're so impossible but lovely, so impossible to win or please. ♥

You cause me serious writers block.

Today's Sept 11 2010.
May all the people who were lost on September 11, 2001, Rest in peace.
May Freedom Tower bring New York City and America a brand new beginning.

PcitureCredit: Socialitelife

New York City, I'll see you again, in 2011/2012 ♥

Hollow inside: Nobody can teach me who I want to be

We all start out knowing magic, we are born with whirlwinds, forest fires, and comets inside us. We are born able to sing to birds and read the clouds and see our destiny in grains of sand. But then we get the magic educated right out of our souls, we get it churched out, spanked out, washed out and combed out. We get put on the straight and narrow and told to be responsible, to act our age, told to grow up for God's sake. And you know why we're told that? Because the people doing the telling were afraid of our wildness and youth, and because the magic we knew made them ashamed and sad at what they allowed to whither in themselves. After you get so far away from it, though, you can't really get it back. You can have seconds of it. Just seconds of knowing and remembering. When people get all weepy at movies, it's because in that dark theater the golden pool of magic is touched, just briefly. Then they come out into the hard sun of logic and reason again and it dries up, and they're left feeling a little heart sad and not knowing why. For the briefest of instants, you have stepped into the magic realm. The truth of life is that every year we get farther away from the essence that is born within us. We get shouldered with burdens, some of them good, some of them not so good. Things happen to us, our love ones die, people get in wrecks and get crippled. Its not hard to do in this world of crazy mazes, life itself does its best to take that memories of magic away from us. You don't know its happening until one day, you feel like you've lost something, but you're not sure what is it. - McCammon

Maybe the damage catch us by surprise

"I can't think of a single reason why I should be a..., but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose... There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit, but here's the thing. I love the playing field."

First project by myself ;D

Meet mean#2

To recall your memory this is mean#1

I used to be the one in blue, rindu.

I miss this adorable creature! Reminds me of my siewyok-eating tortoise, named Woodstock.

Minus office politics+dramas+men ego
Seriously, I really love what I'm doing.

Mr. Blue Sky, will be the breezy transition into Autumn

As summer's warm days draw to a close, It's time for something new. Gradually I'll learn to open up, I'll start building bridges instead of walls. I need some time to work for that pot of gold.

As you travel through life there are always those times, when decisions just have to be made, when the choices are hard and solutions seem scarce, and the rain seems to soak your parade. There are some situations where all you can do is simply let go and move on, gather your courage and choose a direction that carries you toward a new dawn.
So pack up your troubles and take a step forward - The process of change can be tough, but think about all the excitement ahead. There might be adventures you never imagined, just waiting around the next bend and wishes and dreams just about to come true in ways you can't yet comprehend! Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new things as you challenge your status quo, and learn there are so many options in life. Perhaps you'll go places you never expected and see things that you've never seen, or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds and wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you'll find warmth and affection and caring and somebody special who's there to help you stay cantered and listen with interest to stories and feelings you share. Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends are supportive of all that you do, and believe that whatever decisions you make. They'll be the right choices for you. So keep putting one foot in front of the other, and taking your life day by day... There's a brighter tomorrow that's just down the road - Don't look back! You're not going that way!

shall bring happiness